Busy week

I feel like I've had a busy week. Only now I can't even think of what I've done.
Tuesday we took the dogs for a walk at a local conservation area. Bennie picked up a tick and we saw a snake.
We then took Bennie for a haircut. He must be allergic to the soap that the groomer uses because he's all itchy now. He's prone to allergies, so we have a doggie allergy pill for him. It seems to be helping.
We spent the evening tonight cleaning the house and doing all the laundry we can find in the house. Even the dog bedding. Now, I'm so tired I feel like I could sleep for months. Can't go to bed yet though, I have at least 3 more loads of laundry. Yuck. Here is a picture from the walk Tuesday.


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Using only one word

Hair: Brown
Your Mother: admirable
Your Father: Absent
Fav Food: changes
Dream Last Night: Snakes
Fav Drink: Soda
What room are you in?: Living
Hobby: Camping
Fear: Snakes
Where were you last night?: home
Something that you aren’t: Thin
Muffins: Orange
Wish List Item: Money
Where you grew up: Niagara
What you are wearing: undies
Your Pet: Three
Friends: Cherished
Something you’re not wearing: make-up
Fav Store: avondale
Fav Color: Red
Last time you laughed: Hard
Your Best Friend: Love
Best Place you go over and over: Bugsy's
Person who you email regularly: Mom
Fav Place to Eat: Bugsy's

Congratulations to Angela !!

A little while ago, Angela decided to apply to a new job. She currently works for Canadian*Tire as the manager in the parts department. The new job is also for Canadian*Tire corperation, only it would not be in a retail store. This new job is only part time but pays a lot more. She got the job!! She can also stay on part time at the retail store so she'll be making full time hours combined at least. I'm very proud of my girl!

In pregnancy news, all seems well. The m/s comes and goes. I find I pee more, and i have been feeling more constipated. I'm also starting to feel more nervous as I approach the period of time the miscarriage happened last year. It's just so hard when you have to wait to see what's in there. I wish I could just see everything is fine.


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7 weeks!

I've made it to 7 weeks. I have to say though I still spend about 75% of my time worrying. My morning sickness for the most part has gone. I still have moments of gagging or a small amount of vomiting, but nothing like it was for those few days last week. Honestly I may have just had a digestion issue at that point. I did have bloating and a small pain in my upper digestive area, this may have prevented anything getting through, thus making me violently ill.
Really, I am sure to drive myself nuts with examining my symptoms all the time. I guess I'll feel so much better with confirmation of a healthy living growing baby.
I do get some cramps off and on. Not painful, just noticable. My "what to expect" app tells me this is normal.


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Help

Ok so I just need to know if any one else was really sick a few days and then it seemed to suddenly go away. This has me worried.


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Sick

For the last while I have been getting the "morning" sickness. Usually it hits me around 4:30pm and lasts until I fall asleep. It just keeps getting worse and worse. I can't keep anything down in the afternoons at all.
I'm not complaining because this just reassures me. Bring it on!

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Another beautiful day!

Happy Easter ! I'm just waiting for Angela to finish getting ready so that we can head to her parents house for Easter lunch. We have had the most amazing weather this weekend and I'm hoping it is a hint of what we have to come this summer. It's actually been hot out. I mean shorts and tee shirt I'm too hot . I like the hot weather! Don't let me fool you I love all seasons. But I am ready for spring and summer.
Enjoy some time outside in the fresh air!!!


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Wasn't going to but did

I wasn't going to tell my mom until 12 weeks that I'm pregnant. We were at her house for a birthday dinner for Angela yesterday and ended up telling her. She's excited.
I can't seem to shake the fear and stress. I know that it isn't good to be stressed like this but I can't help it. It's like I am waiting to have another miscarriage. I am going to see my doctor on Thursday and will definately be discussing this with him. I mean maybe once 11 weeks 1 day and mothers day come and go i'll feel better but I don't know if I'll ever feel safe.
I really really want to enjoy this pregnancy.


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My eggs smell like ketchup.

I couldn't help but buy the biggest ever bag of mini eggs today, mmmm.
I opened them up to find that they smell like ketchup which is making me gag.


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Darker

Friday's test


Today's test




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Well ....

I'm not sure if my period is due on Sunday or Monday. I'm never any good at the dpo business.. I mean I got positive opk on Saturday and Sunday two weeks ago... I could swear I felt the egg leave my ovary on Sunday evening. Would that make Monday 1 dpo? Would that mean my period is due Sunday on 14 dpo or on Monday after 14 dpo? Why does everything have to be so confusing? This process is stressful enough without adding this math business, and usually I'm pretty good at math.
Remember how I said I just wasn't feeling it this month? Well I have to admit, part of me started feeling it the last couple days. I tried to deny it because I am soooo affraid to be wrong. I would rather not expect to be pregnant if that's Not what the outcome truely will be. I cracked on Thursday. I bought a dollar store cheap hpt on the way home from work and when I got home I peed on the damn thing. I watched it in the window in the bedroom under the direct sunlight for the 10 mins the instructions told me to wait . I don't know.. The control line appeared as the pee swept across the test window. Then slowly, a test line. An extremely faint test line. "am I making this line up in my head?" "this has to be an evap line, right?" I didn't tell any one and hid the test. The next day, I was off work. I asked Angela to stop off at the $ store on her lunch hour to pick up a cheap hpt so that I could test early and not waste an expensive test. She did as asked and brought one home. I peed on the damn thing. I carried it down stairs to where Angela was having her lunch. We waited the ten min the instructions told me to. Could it be? Another faint, very faint test line. Hmmm... Maybe my deep down intuition can be trusted. I broke down and peed on an expensive test. Holy shit! A f@*#en test line! It's more faint than I'm comfortable with. But it's there.
I'm pregnant! I'm scared to death!


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1 year ago today

Well today's the day... On this day last year I got my BFP. I was happy that day.
Currently, I am enduring the last 3 days of my two week wait. I previously stated that I'm not feeling I this month. I stick to my intuition. I'm still not feeling it. I have felt no different at any point of this 2WW than I have in the past 7 negative months. In fact, I've been having PMS for the last couple days. Crampies... Not bad ones, but the ones I generally get before my period. I could start spotting at any moment. That generally happens 3 days or so before the visit from AF.
I have to admit though that I am feeling on board with my doctors theory that I just have to keep trying and I will get pregnant. There are too many positive fertile signs, for something to be wrong. Ask me in a year if I still feel this way.
I have been coping with yet another dissapointing month by continually reminding myself i'm not really in a race with this. It will be every bit exciting and joyful in a year from now if that's when it happens than it would be now. Sure, there is a bit of a race with time but I've got 7+ years. Maybe I should worry after 5 years.
Also, i'm the kind of person who enjoys looking forward to things almost as much as the actual event. If I get pregnant too soon, that's it... The event.. So right now I should enjoy looking forward to discovering I'm pregnant.
Happy Thursday everyone!!
I have a three day weekend this weekend :)


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