Wednesday, November 30, 2011

New post @ private blog

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Tuesday, November 29, 2011

6 days

Only 6 days until I have to go back to work. I have mixed feelings about it. I'm hoping that less free time will lead to better organization.
Maizey has started crying and reaching for mom when being dropped off at daycare. This doesn't help me want to be back to work.
I woke up with the worst headache this morning. The Tylenol I took hasn't even touched it.
Does anyone know if the good shows will be back on this week?
I'm going back to bed. It's cold and raining.

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Wednesday, November 23, 2011

1 year ago tonight

1 year ago tonight, I went to bed with gas. It took me several hours to accept that I was actually having contractions. It was 5 days early, I was convinced it was too soon! That night 1 year ago, was the best night of my life! There was pain, and possibly some swearing, but no doubt in my mind - the absolute most wonderful experience of my lifetime.
The year since started rough. First - slight ppd. It never got horrible, but none the less it was there and as someone who is prone to depression, it was scarey. I just didn't want to get to that nasty pit in my stomache, darkness of a place I know all too well. Soon after the birth, my mom wasn't right... She expressed some trouble with her bowels and with her appetite. I could look at her and know she wasn't right. She was admitted to the hospital on December 16. It was hard to be a new mom without my mom there to advise me. January 1- Angela's mom was admitted to paliative care in the cancer centre. January 2 - my mom had emergancy surgery to remove her large bowel - later to find out she had gangrenous lesions and cancer of the bowel. My mom then had a long recovery to make. January 7- Angela's mom passed away. Several days of Visitation and funeral coordinated with visits to my recovering mom in the hospital. Followed by two weeks of single parethood while Angela was in Portugal laying her mom to rest.
Soon after - a falling out with friends.
It was a rocky start Maizey! Your babyhood was not what I imagined it to be, but we made it through the rough, and onto smooth sailing. I love you more than anything little girl!

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Monday, November 21, 2011

Birthday time!

Can't even believe that Maizey's first birthday is on Thursday! My god! I am sad but at the same time so very excited and happy. My baby is growing, and doing new things every day. I will miss her babyhood. I also look forward to watching her grow, change and discover.
She started daycare last week. She loves it! She loves to be around other children, so I thought she'd like daycare. The best part about taking her to daycare? The smile, hug and kiss I get from her when I pick her up to go home! She has become quite a mummy suck!
We found a house we love! It got quite exciting for a couple days, as Ang's dad was ready to make an offer, and immediate possession was possible. A few things changed and we will have to wait to make an offer. We will probably miss out on this one.
We've decided to stop looking until her dad's house has sold. Then we will have no complications when it comes to making offers.
Christmas is coming! I have figured out what changed for me and why Christmas doesn't feel as magical as it once did. My parents use to do the stressful stuff and we just enjoyed it, now it's harder to enjoy because we have to do the stressful stuff! I have found new magic though - making Christmas magical for maizey will make it so special to me.
Check out my new post on my private blog!
I'll post pictures here once I get them off my camera.

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