Thursday, December 24, 2009

Merry Christmas!

Just wanted to wish everyone out there a very Merry Christmas!
Hope everyone has a wonderful celebration in whatever way they celebrate!
Don't drink and drive!

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Christmas Celebrations

Tonight, we celebrate Christmas with my mom, brother, sister-in-law and two nephews. I can't help but think that one little baby will be missing. I thought that maybe if I could be pregnant again by now, that it wouldn't hurt as much, never once thinking that if I'm not pregnant again by now it will hurt double. I will be some day and that's what matters I guess. Maybe next Christmas we will be mommies.
Wishing and hoping for a little snow at Christmas!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Almost over.

So the tww is almost over. Technically there are 2 days left in the official two weeks. I don't think my AF is going to wait that long. I am having all the typical symptoms of her. I know they say that these symptoms are similar to those of actually being pregnant, but again, I just don't feel that I am deep down. Earlier in the week I thought it might actually be possible, I was feeling quite positive about it. Not at all anymore. I'll keep you updated.

Friday, December 11, 2009

Quick update

I am feeling very much that this insemination didn't work this month. I will continue to hope that it did, and probably try to make everything i feel into a symptom.
I just feel that it's not likely this time.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Weird Cycle again. A lot of personal Info. maybe TMI

OK... Again, a weird cycle. I was going to refrain from posting about my ttc this month. But I have to get it out there. We did 3 insemination this time. One the day before my positive opk, one the day of my positive opk and one the day after my positive opk. Today is the day after the third insemination. I had some wonderfully fertile CM all three days. Although, I did have some spotting. Pinkish, and streaky within the CM. I didn't worry too much about that due to the article that I found online last month, and also because when I actually did get pregnant in March, I had the same. Well it seems that today, I had some brown/pink discharge (i hate that word) as well there was a large brown clot in the toilet after i peed, and quite an abundance of pink when I wiped. I just don't know anymore. I was feeling really very positive about this try. I have had a good feeling about this try since my last negative in November. I know there isn't much I can do other than wait. I am going to see my GP tomorrow and I will be getting the results of my blood work from last week. I will have a converstaion with him about it tomorrow. Maybe he can shed some light. The one thing I am sure of this month though, is that I did have a LH surge. The test line definately came up darker than the control on CD18.

Snowed Today

It made me happy that it Snowed a little bit today!

Saturday, December 5, 2009


I have been feeling a little bit "Eeyore" these days. I'm not too sure what's wrong. It could be the lack of Christmas feeling I have as we approach Christmas. I am working on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, but that's ok with me. I don't really mind doing it. Most of my co-workers (usually only one staff works at a time) have small children, and like to be home with them for all that Santa stuff. It's a trade off. I have worked Christmas pretty much for as long as I've worked at this agency. It will be my 8th Christmas in a row this year. I figure that should give me some great time off on Christmas when I have my own kids, when it really matters. I figure I can make the switch up for New Year's Eve and New Year's day when I have kids. I just feel like that will be the "holiday" that doesn't matter so much anymore. In my line of work, we HAVE to work at least one of the "stat" holidays. It's good pay so I really shouldn't complain. I figure if I wasn't working Christmas day, I'd probably sleep in anyway. So really, I am not missing anything by working. We have our "family Christmas dinner" on Christmas night, so I am all done working by that time. I don't really even know if I will be needed at the house this year, most of the people I work for (support) will be going to be with their families.
I've been really into planning a summer vacation lately. I've been on the Internet for days searching out the Perfect Cottage to rent. I think I have finally found it. If we do decide on going to it, I will post a link so you can check it out, but not until after I secure a deposit for the preferred week we want. I do realize that this could be the very last Childless summer vacation for me. :) but that makes me happy. I mean, hopefully by then I could be very pregnant, and waddling around. Oh a dream.
Speaking of getting pregnant, my KD got an I*phone. There is an app for menstrual cycles on it, so last night we inputted all my cycle information. Now, he will know exactly what is expected of him and when. He was pretty excited when today showed up as "dark green". At first he didn't know what that meant so I explained. I told him that all of the "green" days on the calendar were good days to inseminate, "dark green" being the best. (I feel like I am over using the " " " today). We just started yesterday. But I think from now on, we'll probably go ahead any "green day".
I have a Christmas party to go to tonight, it is a fancy one. Right now, due to feeling Eeyore, I don't really feel like going. Just the though of getting all dressed up and being around people, just isn't doing it for me right now. Last year, I wore a dress to this event, but this year, I am trying to figure out what the most comfortable but dressy enough option I have. What I really want to wear is my dress pants and a sweater, but I fear the sweater will be way too warm. I have a feeling I will just be wearing my same old dress blouse. Oh well. The worst part of it all is the bra. I hate the dress up bra. Sure, the girls look great in it, but by the end of the night, I just can't wait to pour them out of the thing.
This weekend is a busy one.
Cross your fingers for me and send me baby dust and all that. :)