Wednesday, May 23, 2012

More drinking

The neighbour kids were out drinking and horsing around in front of the house again this afternoon when I finally got home from work. I had to stay later today at the last minute as a favour to my manager. Lucky for me, we had already planned that Maizey's dad would pick her up from daycare today. Ange has been working 12 hr days again and we are thankful for the pick up in hours, but I am feeling a little tired and lonely again. I haven't been sleeping well at night, and much of the time I'm dragging through the days.
I guess I just need to get a night job lol;)
Mom finally got the results and as it turns out, she will need chemo. They will be doing it every two weeks for 8 rounds. This means she will likely be living with her fistula for at least 4 more months. On top of it all, she's having an allergic reaction to something and they can't figure out what! My poor mom. What an amazing woman to be dealing with all of this.
With all of this going on with my mom and aunt, I am reminded that life is too short and unpredictable to not be lived to the fullest.
I'm at a spot where I've run out of things to say. I know there is so much more inside but I can't sort it out well enough to even think it never mind blog.
I don't feel sorry for myself, I'm just spreading thin. I'm tired of everything being do negative and I am looking for the positives. Hopefully I can express them soon.

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Sunday, May 20, 2012

Still Waiting

I have been so crazy busy these days with work, visiting mom, helping a friend move, hurricane Maizey and my dad visiting from china.
Mom had her mastectomy and all went well. We are still waiting to hear whether or not the cancer was in the surrounding tissue and lymph nodes. That will determine if she needs chemo and radiation or not. Once we know that we will have a better understanding of how they are planning to deal with the fistula. Mom is really getting tired of being in the hospital.
My aunt was flown from Florida to niagara falls on Friday. She is still in the ICU, but seems to be doing better. I've had her on my mind every day.

My dad and his wife were here briefly visiting. They are planning on moving back soon. My step-mom's planning on retiring in March. They will most likely end up in northern Ontario somewhere. I wish closer but they have always wanted to move to northern Ontario.

Maizey has been so funny these days. She talks nonstop and thinks she is the boss of everything. She loves being outside and cries when it is time to come in the house. She loves playing rough with other kids and has no fear. She's sporting many bumps and bruises as a consequence to that.

We've had domestic neighbor drama shows every day this week. I guess when the weather is good, they take it out side. It'S not only our one neighbor, but usually the same 5 places. It really is getting to be too much. Especially when I have finally fallen asleep and am awoken by the swearing and yelling.

I'm really looking forward to my vacations this summer!

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Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Debbie Downer

Unfortunately I am a Debbie Downer tonight. All I have is sad news updates all around. My mom is scheduled for a mastectomy tomorrow. They are removing the whole breast. They are however optimistic, that she likely won't need chemo or radiation at all after that. Lets hope not because she will probably need a surgery to fix her fistula. They are talking about removing more of her small intestine, as well as the hernia that she has in there causing the fistula. On top of that, I just got off the phone with my dad. My aunt who is in Florida on a vacation got into a boating accident and broke her neck. She was on life support for a while, and now is doing better. She had a surgery today to remove some of her vertibrae and put in a steel plate. She isn't paralized, and they are hoping to have her up on her feet tomorrow. She is stuck in Florida for a while, we are unsure when she will be able to return. I guess she is having some trouble with her travel insurance coverage company. We made an offer on the house last week with the condition of sale on Angela's dad's house. They accepted it with their own conditions. One was that they could continue to recieve offers and that if they accepted another offer, we would have 48 hours to remove our conditions to continue with the sale. Well they recieved another offer that they accepted, and Angela's dad does not want to remove the condition of sale on his house, so we will not be getting that home. I am not as torn up about it as I thought I would be. At the same time though, there really isn't much out there in our price range that we want to look at. We went and saw two more yesterday. One was across the street from the house I grew up in. It was a total dump. It had half assed renovations everywhere that were all incomplete. It just was not very nice at all, it kind of gave me the creeps. There was an electrical panel in the bathroom... just open there. The tiles were all jagged edged, like someone didn't know what they were doing when they cut them. It was just weird. The other was the complete opposite. It was beautifully done. The problem was that it was too small, and it had no door to the back yard. Just a side door. It is important to me to have a door to the back area, so that if we have a pool and a bbq etc, we can have easy access. The ideal place would have a door from the kitchen/dining area to the back deck/patio. That would be heaven. There was another house that we wanted to view, but I guess it had an offer, and stopped all showing of the house unless the offer fell through. There are very few other houses on our list that we would like to see. In part we want to just wait until Ang's dad's house sells before we even look at another place, but we also want to have an idea of what is out there. I'm having a hard time concentrating on things these days. I am having a hard time keeping up with life. I am having a hard time sleeping at night, mostly tossing and turning. I guess there is just a lot going on that I am trying to keep sorted out in my mind. It's a crazy time. I do however have my little girl. She is just doing things to amaze me more each day. I don't think I have ever seen an 18 month old talk so much. She is a little dare devil. My most favorite thing she does is take my glasses off and then kiss me. lol. Too cute. Yesterday she was sitting on the dog's back and "reading a book". The poor little dogs... they are so tolerant.