Monday, December 7, 2015

An accident.

I am heartbroken. A gentleman that I have supported at my place of work was killed in a tragic car accident on the weekend. He and his sister both.
I'm completely at a loss.

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Monday, November 23, 2015

Happy 5th Birthday to my beautiful, smart, hilariously funny and talented little girl. I love you more than any words could even come close to expressing. This love is something I never knew existed. I'm so glad it was you that showed me it does.

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

Monday, October 12, 2015

Just pictures

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Finally it allowed me to post pictures. It was just a test. Earlier I mean.
Things have been great around here! We had a terrific summer and fall's going well already.
We enjoyed turkey dinner last night and my sweety even cooked it ! Usually I'm the cook. She did a fantastic job.
Already thinking about another get away this March break.. Hoping to be able to afford it. I wish we knew more people with kids Maizey's age so they could join us. I like for her to have someone to play with. I know most resorts have kids clubs but I don't like the idea of going on a family vacation just to ditch my kid. Although, maybe she'd make friends.
My nephew and Mai get along very well but my brother and my sis in law aren't resort people. They like to be on the go a lot.
Over the weekend, I had one of those moments when you write the date down and realize someone you use to know had a birthday that day. Got me thinking of good old times. Good memories. Made me a little lonesome.
Things at work have lightened up a bit and the stress has lightened up a bit too. Makes it a lot easier to love my job! There are aspects of my job that I love, that I hadn't been doing due to the individual needs of the people I supported, well some of those things are back. It's a nice change. Less mental exhaustion and more physical exhaustion.
Anyway, enough random thoughts for now. More pictures.

Ok now I can't post pictures !!
I wish I was more techie
I'll try the photos after in their own post maybe?

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Wednesday, July 29, 2015


Why won't blog press let me post pictures? Ugh!

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Last day of vacation.

I'm just coming to the end of a 12 day vacation. It's been nice despite the fact that I went in for a 4 hour shift on Sunday night. My job is working with adults with disabilities. At the particular house I work at, 3/4 of the people have fetal alcohol spectrum disorder. Those 3, share space. It's a normal house. 1 person spends most of the time in the apartment in the basement. I have worked with the individual in the basement for 14.5 years. We have a great relationship.
As for the 3 upstairs, it's difficult. If you aren't familiar with FASD, look it up. It's basically brain injury. Before birth. Due to a pregnant mother drinking alcohol. We have 3 individuals who are all affected by the same thing. (The only disability that is 100% preventable btw.) They are all very similar but oh so very different. Add in a little paranoia, some sever thought pattern and social disorder and oppositional defiance disorder and the fact that no one can see and or understand their own disabilities and refuse any and all assistance by the staff working, and it makes for a long and mentally draining day. Factor in too, that most homes have minimum two staff working at a time due to high physical needs or dangerous acting out behaviour, but since we have neither, we have only one staff on at a time.
Ok, we have no "office" or private space to do our documentation or paperwork, and no private space to communicate to the staff arriving on shift what has been going in all day. (Remember paranoia? Yep it's part of our job to talk to oncoming staff about the individual's day.) Often times we find ourselves out on the front porch doing our exchange of information.
Needless to say, it can be stressful and not a job for just anyone.
For a while it was exceptionally stressful due to a staffing shortage.
Myself and the other full time staff in the house ended up doing enough overtime to be able to have a whole extra week of vacation time. We had hired some new people and that staffing crisis was over. Things were starting to lighten up in the stress department. Well.... While I've been on vacation two people quit. Due to stress.
Hence why I worked 4 hours while I was on vacation!
I almost had to work 8 more but another person ended up taking that shift. I'm glad that I've already been scheduled for my next vacation or it might not have been approved.
We're going camping that week. We're using my brother's pop up and spending 5 nights at Killbear provincial park. I'm looking very forward to it.
This vacation has been spent pretty much at home. In our yard. It's been nice.

Maizey is doing well. She's been having trouble with the potty and began wetting herself. And then bm accidents. We've discovered that she is holding her bm and becoming constipated. With the introduction of some more fibre and strict poo poo potty time each day, we've seemingly solved that problem.
She misses school and keeps asking if there's school tomorrow.
She is also enjoying the time home in the yard and can swim on her own without floaties. Because our pool is too deep for her, we still have her wear her floaties when we aren't in the pool with her as we're afraid she'll get tired half way across and panic. She can swim the length of the pool on her own but not every time.
It's been a great summer so far.
Maizey and Angela just spent the past weekend at ang's sisters cottage at sherkston shore resort. I opted not to go because I had just got my period and I'm like a 12 year old girl when it comes to my period. It is usually rather heavy and I didn't want to have to keep going from the beach to the cottage for the washroom. Not to mention getting up once every two hrs through the night to go to the washroom to change. It was just more comfortable for me to be home for that.
Update on ttc- we haven't been. We are 90% sure Maizey is going to be an only child. We are just feeling comfortable with our family the way it is. Every now and then though we get that baby fever and consider another. My body hasn't been too co-operative with no really strong signs of ovulation, so we don't bother trying to coordinate with our doner in Toronto.

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Sunday, May 31, 2015

Mental Health

I've been struggling a lot with my mental health lately. There has been a lot of stress. It's been tough to keep it in any way together.
I think the nicer weather has been helping. My body aches less, I'm more motivated to do stuff. I feel more alive.

Living with a mental illness is tough. It's even harder when you try so hard to hide it.

I'm hoping to get back to writing here more regularly. I really like to have things to look back on.

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Thursday, March 12, 2015

2 days

Only 2'days until we go to Cuba for the week! Yay! I'm so ready for this vacation. I'm excited! It'll be a different experience than I've had. I've been without my family only being responsible for myself. I've been with work, so not really that relaxing. This time I'll have my family with me! Hoping we all just love the time together! I love all inclusive because you don't have to worry about anything. It's all just taken care of.
Maizey is pretty excited but keeps telling people we're going to Florida.

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Sunday, February 8, 2015

We're going!

It's official, we've booked a trip to Cuba for March break!
We are really excited. My good friend and two of her kids are going to come too! Maizey's papa (donor's husband) is coming to. Her dad can't make it this time because he is in nursing school and has some clinical stuff he can't miss. We'll miss him.

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Monday, January 12, 2015

Where'd we all go?

It seems I'm not the only one failing to keep up with the blog these days. I'm missing the blogs I read on a regular basis. 70% of them are not updating.
I know I can't complain because I'm just as bad.
Life just seems to be droning on for me. Not much new and exciting stuff going on.
Work has been particularly stressful the last 6 or 7 months. I mean, we have brand new staff who have only worked here for a couple months complaining of burnout, never mind that they are part timers. It's been a stressful go for those of us who are full time. There was a period of about 6 weeks that we were short staffed. I earned an extra 10 days of vacation time during that time because of working over time hours. I just need a break from it. The stress I mean.
We're hoping to use the extra vacation time to go away somewhere over March break. Not sure where, but hoping tropical. We'll have to see how money is. No solid plans at this time. Also will see how taxes go, hoping not to owe anything this year but not likely.
I'm starting to wish I had got a hot tub instead of a pool, because I would love to just soak in a hot tub after work each evening.
Maybe we'll work towards adding a hot tub to our back yard oasis. It's a huge expense though as we'd have to expand our electrical panel in order to support a tub.
Maybe in the distant future.

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