Saturday, December 27, 2008

Friday, December 26, 2008

It's over ?

Christmas has come and gone. Whoa. Where does the time go?
So we went to my mom's Brother's last night. It is always a good time there. My cousin and his wife brought their dog with them (English bull terrier) and he was playing with my nephew. It was soooo funny and cute!

We went today to my dad's sister's house. Only my one cousin, her husband, her son, my aunt and her husband were there. They were all fine with Angela. I just introduced her as "Angela". It was fine really. They talked as if we were a couple, and totally fine with that. So it was all good.

Hope you all had a great holiday.

I am off until next Friday, so that's awesome!

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Rainy Christmas Eve

Well.. I woke up this morning to a lovely rain... on Christmas Eve. The forecast says that it is supposed to taper off by this afternoon, and then the temperature will be dropping below 0, followed by some flurries. That should make for some lovely snow covered ice rinks on the streets for Christmas day! It's all good.

I'm not too sure that I really slept at all last night. I worked afternoons yesterday (until 11pm) and then once I got home and in bed it was almost 1am. Then, all night long, I could hear this terrible sound. The gutter on our apartment building has a gap in it, right above our bedroom window (which I keep open all night due to the facts that I can't sleep without fresh air, and that our building blasts the heat all winter and we have no control over it in each apartment suite), so, all I could hear was this pouring, puddling, water noise... it was very loud and annoying. Then, I had to get up early as I am doing the 7am-3pm shift today (as a favour to a friend). I'm not really sure how well I sleep on the nights that I have to work in the morning anyway, I am forever waking myself up to see what time it is. Does anyone know how to break that habit. I always sleep fine when I don't have to get up in the morning at any particular time. Only when I know my alarm has been set. I think in the past year, I have only had to rely on my alarm clock to wake me one time, as I usually am awake and turn it off before it rings.

I tell you, I am so happy we decided to move. I was having some apprehension about it early on, but now I am glad. For so many reasons... some of them are : we can control our own heat, our laundry will no longer get locked in the laundry room over night, we can do our laundry whenever we feel like it, It won't cost us $3.00 a load/$20 a week to do our laundry, I won't have to walk out into a smokey hallway every morning, I will no longer have to look at the large naked fellow who sits in his underwear in his patio window EVERY SINGLE DAY (pretty much all day) staring out at the world around him, my mail won't be locked in a tiny little box that only one key can access, I will have a (small) yard, we'll be in walking distance to the local sex shop (*LOL), I won't be startled out of bed at 1:30am because someone decided to get all drunk on a Thursday night and pull the fire alarm, and many many more reasons. As of right now, the only thing that I can think of that will be a bummer about moving is that our donor will be living a little further away. Right now he's about 1km away and when we move, he'll be 3km away.

Hurray to the new year and new adventures!

Wishing everyone a happy and safe holiday season!

Monday, December 22, 2008

Christmas is Coming!

Two days until Christmas. I just don't feel very Christmasy these days. I don't know why. I thought that some nice snow would help me with my Christmas cheer, but we got a great snow storm... and still nadda. We went to my mom's house last night for our family Christmas with my mom, brother, sister-in-law, and two nephews. It was cute to see the little guys open their gifts up and play with them. The littlest guy has a cold and isn't feeling well, but he's very very cute. The older guy is at that age where he wants all the attention but isn't "cute" anymore.. because that's not cool.
We decided this year that we would only do gifts for the kids, and the mom, but of course my mom got us all gifts and had to give us some money.
The weather was calling for another good 20cm of snow on Christmas eve, but now I noticed on the weather channel that it has changes to rain. Ewww... I hope that it doesn't rain on Christmas.

My mom and I have been invited to my dad's sister's house for boxing day celebrations. (its weird I know.. my dad and mom are totally divorced have been for 27 years, but my dad's sisters invite my mom over for holiday celebrations).. but I am not sure what to do. I am out to all of my mom's family, but only recently came out to my dad (only because we have such a strange and impersonal relationship)... now.. I don't know if his family knows that I am gay or not (because again, we rarely have any contact with them). I mean, my cousins have been hinting that they know I guess.. unless that is me thinking that they are hinting. One said we should have a bbq one summer for all the family and that me and my "room-mate" should attend, and the other said that "Ang?" and I should totally come to Kingston to visit them. SO the point of this rambling is to say.. I'll bring Ang with me.. but how do I introduce her? as my "girlfriend"? or just as "Angela" ... I Just feel like it will be an awkward situation. Should I just leave them to their own assumptions? Tricky. or Simple? I don't know... Any advice is appreciated.

Umm.. so Try number three should be coming up sometime soon, I best be starting my OPK's again soon. :S Holiday insemination... good luck?

Monday, December 15, 2008


Ang and I had some friends stay with us this weekend. It was a good weekend. We all had a lot of fun.
They brought us some Christmas Gifts... we were anticipating that we would do gift exchange with them after Christmas, but they insisted that we open them up right away.
They got Ang some books that she is totally in to.. and for me...
how thoughtful of them... they got me a fertility goddess necklace. So beautiful... I put it on right away.. lets hope it works it's magic.
So after we spent the weekend laughing and having lots of food and fun, they had to go back home to their city.
Know what? They stole our toothpaste!!!! lol...

Wednesday, December 10, 2008


Yep, I was right... Back to CD 1 again... :S ... try try again.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

I have a funny feeling

I have a sad funny feeling that my AF is on her way today... :( bummer

Friday, December 5, 2008

One to go.

One week down, one week to go.

I don't really have much to say tonight. I just thought that since I am just sitting here watchin the dogs play together, I should maybe do a post.

I only have one week left of the 2WW. Seems like such a long time, I have decided not to hold my breath. I think our donor is doing enough praying for all of us, as he would like to go back to doing that for pleasure, not under pressure! LOL... He's in for a long ride.. lol.. maybe when he signed those papers, he didn't know what he was getting into. We like to tease him. Funny conversation.. we had the other day.. (warning, might put you off a bit, but it was sooo funny)
So the donor and his partner come over to our place to do the deed.. (ya, we're lucky enough to have it delivered to our bedroom door.. lol) and this is how the conversation went pre-deed doing.
D = Donor
P = Donor's Partner

M = me...

A= Angela
Ok.. so the donor comes out of the bathroom...

D - "so, is that the syringe you will be using in there in the bathroom?"

M- "well, it is similar, but we have a sterile one in a package in the bedroom to use"

D - "Are you sure it is long enough?, it looks kind of small"
A - "that's what they said to use on the web page where we have been getting our insemination advice from"

D- "oh.. cause if we were doing this the regular way, I would be a lot further in there than that..."
A - "umm... is that an offer?"
M- "lol"

P - "ya, that better not be an offer"
M- "some one has an ego!"
all of us "lol"

Ok, so maybe it was sort of a had to be there kind of thing.

I have been thinking a lot about the process, you know, the natural part. Once it is all in there and doing it's job. I seem to think that this really is a miracle.. all those tiny little microscopic organisms soooo small.. swimming in such a large area.. (that really isn't full of liquid all the time.. so I don't so much get the swimming part, I mean... 2cc of liquid really isn't that much.. does it fill up your uterus and provide a mini lake - so to speak - for the little guys to swim in?) Not too mention how do they know weather or not to take a left or a right ... and then to have to meet up with another tiny little microscopic cell... what are the chances. It really isn't that easy to get pregnant is it? So why do they scare you so much in highschool??
LOL>.. ok... so enough of my crazy stream of thought...
I'll let you get back to your lives... and stop weaving into my messed up thought patterns..
Have a good weekend everyone.

Monday, December 1, 2008

On with the show

So.. spent the last week doing inseminations. Hopefully one of them worked, but I am not going to stress about it at this point. I need to learn to relax. Cheers to my donor who did a lot of *hard* work for me this past week. ;)

So, everything has been pretty much the same around here. I was a bit dissapointed that we didn't get the snow storm that was being called for. Like I have said in the past, I secretely like snow.

I spent the weekend helping my mom babysit my nephews. Sooo sweet. I had to take the older guy to his hockey practice and game. I love that stuff. Kinda makes me emotional though. Later on Sunday the younger guy (almost 2) was cranky, but didn't want to have a nap. But eventually he snuggled up on my lap and fell asleep. I was in heaven.. a nice snuggle from my nephew is always nice...