Saturday, February 28, 2009

Sort of round-about ...

So, I talked to my mom in a sort of round about way about the baby things. I just said.. "Mom, if you give all your stuff to "uncle and aunt" what are you going to do when I have a baby? She just said, "I'll get it back". So, I guess that's how it'll be.

Tomorrow is CD 16. According to my fertility calendar on Your Days I will be fertile starting tomorrow and ending next Friday. This is the plan... "Donor" will be coming over Tomorrow, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday to make the donations. Hopefully we are covered. I am wondering if we should just have him come over all 6 days to donate. It is hard to say. The instructions we follow from a pamphlet we found on a "LGBT Parenting" site says that the donor should abstain masturbation or sexual activity for one to two days before donation to increase his sperm count. So.. should he abstain from making donations for a day between donations?
I think we will just go with the every other day plan, and not worry too much about it.
I think all in all this cycle, I am going to try to take the nonchalant approach to it, as if I were to be throwing caution to the wind so to speak. If that makes sense at all?
I feel I have had a pretty boring post lately with no fun pictures.. I will try to post some pictures soon.

Monday, February 23, 2009

Oh no.. what should I do... ????

Hey all...
I just got a call from my mom, and it has left me a bit worried. You see, Angela and I had this plan to NOT tell my mom or family that we are in the process of TTC because we wanted it to be a huge surprise when we finally get to make the "We're Expecting" announcement. OK, so my mom and family was so totally cool when I came out to them, and they're so loving and accepting of Angela, but I would have to say that my mom's one flaw (if you can call it that) is that she doesn't think that I will ever have Children. I mean, she knows that we are not financially in a place where we would be spending money on any fertility clinics or sperm banks, and I have told her previously "there's more than one way to skin a cat", and that I would use my good friend "so-and-so" as the donor. But she totally thought conventionally and thought I was joking (as she was probably thinking I would have to have intercourse with him) telling me "that's too much information" lol.
Well to this day she talks about my youngest nephew as being her last grandchild. So, I seriously don't think she even has a clue that one day... I will have a child. It's not that she's trying to be ignorant or anything, I just think she isn't expecting me to be in the want to do this now phase of things.
Ok.. so back to the reason for this post.
She called me tonight and told me that my cousin and his wife are expecting their first baby this year. Which is very exciting news, I am thrilled for them, as they will make fantastic parents. But, the thing is, my mom is talking about giving my aunt and uncle all her "baby" stuff. Like the playpen, and the booster seat and all that, because my nephew will have out grown it all by the time they have their child. Well now I am worried, that she will give it all away, and not have anything for my child when it gets here. I know I am not even pregnant yet, and that it could take a while, but still... I don't really want to tell her that we're trying, mostly because of how unexpected a surprise it will totally be when it does happen. Also, I am afraid that my brother and his wife will give them all the good hand-me-downs...
Selfish? I don't know what to do? Advice please!!!!

Saturday, February 21, 2009

ho hum

life seems pretty boring for me these days... stuck waiting for another ovulation... It's weird, its like that is what my life is becoming. Wait for this and that.
I haven't been up to much lately. Just the usual.. go to work, come home, make dinner, watch a show or two on TV, walk the dogs, go to bed.
I have been more motivated to go to work lately. Not sure whats up with that. I mean, I absolutely LOVE my job, but sometimes I find that I just don't want to go in. Not for a particular reason, just don't want to go. But this week, I've been thinking.. meh.. work.. lets get 'er done. That's a good thing I guess.
Today, Angela is busy cleaning the house. I am still sitting around in my pyjamas. I am sure to get in shit for not helping. lol. Oh well... I do the cleaning of the house a lot of the time, so she can have a turn today. Her parents and sister and brother-in-law, and two nieces and one nephew are all coming over for dinner tonight. That's probably what the frantic cleaning is about. I have to go out and grab a few groceries for later, but other than that, I have an uneventful day. It's nice to have a Saturday where I'm not super stressed out about something or another.

Saturday, February 14, 2009


I got a nice RED gift for valentine's day today. I'm sure you can guess what it is.
Oh well.. Back to CD 1. I guess we'll just keep trying. Not much more that we can do.
Right now, I'm focusing on the positive.
I have a nice regular cycle.
My Luteal Phase is exactly 14 days, which is perfect.
My Dr. Suggested that I try to lose weight and said that even 5 - 10 lbs would make a big difference, So, I'll give that a go.
I find it has been easier to eat more at home meals (always healthier) since we have moved... so that should help.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

12 DPO = BFN

Tested this morning... BFN :(
AF isn't due till Saturday, so we'll wait and see what happens.
Staying positive :)

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

10 DPO- I'm going nuts lol

it is day 10, and I am going nuts. I just want this wait to be over. I want it to be over with a happy ending. ;)
But, again... if it's not, I'll just keep trying.

Saturday, February 7, 2009


We have got the upstairs mostly done now. We still need to hang some curtains in the bedrooms (we're going for the ghetto look right now with sheets pinned up) and sort through a couple of boxes in the spare bedroom.
We also need to do the basement. We have to arrange a time when we can pick up that second hand couch we were buying and the retro lamp (that Ang doesn't want me to have) and a TV stand. Computer, cable and all that is all hooked up. Did I mention I did laundry until midnight the other day.. woo hoo.. lol... we got a free bar fridge with our washer and dryer so we have that down here in the basement. This is where we will be keeping the "office" and "rec-room".
I'm not quite at the picture posting stage yet, as there are a few things that just need a little fine tuning, and we're not sure yet if we are keeping the curtains we have now in the living room. They are the only ones we had that fit the patio door, and they is red. Our Decorating experts are in a split decision about them, Steven says yes-go bold with the red, and Michael says, no go with the softer sheer blues that we have in the kitchen window right now.

Ok.. so far, still feeling positive about this month I had a bit of cramping like the ones I get before and during AF (but much less pain) yesterday, and today got some weird heartburn when hungry... but other than that.. no symptoms at all.
I won't test probably until 14 + days, cause I will be too disappointed if nothing comes up positive, and AF is natures way of telling you it didn't work and it doesn't cost money. ;) But that could all change as time goes on. I might get the urge to test early when it gets to 12 days. We'll see.

Monday, February 2, 2009

The Boxes are in...

So, the boxes are in the new place. I did a lot of unpacking in the kitchen, but am waiting to do the living area until tomorrow. I have the day off. My good friend Michael is coming over to help me with it because he is so good at decorating and all that. Every time I go to his house, it is very warm and welcoming so I wouldn't mind having a little of that at my own place.
Angela worked mostly downstairs in the basement with the storage, and office/hideaway area we are hoping to achieve.
The bedrooms are both all set up and done except for hanging pictures and also curtains/window dressings. I am hoping that my current curtain rods will fit in the new windows. They are much wider than at our old place. I know for sure I will need to pick up a couple of new panels of curtains, but that's not too bad. I will post pictures once it looks how I want it to.

I am still feeling very positive about this attempt. Amongst all the craziness of the moving, we still managed to fit in 3 insems. And I just feel good.
I don't want to jinx it, but also I want to have a positive attitude. Anyone know of the superstition on this subject? Do I pretend like it may not work as not to jinx it, or do I feel that it did to have a positive outlook. Crossing my fingers.