Debbie Downer

Unfortunately I am a Debbie Downer tonight. All I have is sad news updates all around. My mom is scheduled for a mastectomy tomorrow. They are removing the whole breast. They are however optimistic, that she likely won't need chemo or radiation at all after that. Lets hope not because she will probably need a surgery to fix her fistula. They are talking about removing more of her small intestine, as well as the hernia that she has in there causing the fistula. On top of that, I just got off the phone with my dad. My aunt who is in Florida on a vacation got into a boating accident and broke her neck. She was on life support for a while, and now is doing better. She had a surgery today to remove some of her vertibrae and put in a steel plate. She isn't paralized, and they are hoping to have her up on her feet tomorrow. She is stuck in Florida for a while, we are unsure when she will be able to return. I guess she is having some trouble with her travel insurance coverage company. We made an offer on the house last week with the condition of sale on Angela's dad's house. They accepted it with their own conditions. One was that they could continue to recieve offers and that if they accepted another offer, we would have 48 hours to remove our conditions to continue with the sale. Well they recieved another offer that they accepted, and Angela's dad does not want to remove the condition of sale on his house, so we will not be getting that home. I am not as torn up about it as I thought I would be. At the same time though, there really isn't much out there in our price range that we want to look at. We went and saw two more yesterday. One was across the street from the house I grew up in. It was a total dump. It had half assed renovations everywhere that were all incomplete. It just was not very nice at all, it kind of gave me the creeps. There was an electrical panel in the bathroom... just open there. The tiles were all jagged edged, like someone didn't know what they were doing when they cut them. It was just weird. The other was the complete opposite. It was beautifully done. The problem was that it was too small, and it had no door to the back yard. Just a side door. It is important to me to have a door to the back area, so that if we have a pool and a bbq etc, we can have easy access. The ideal place would have a door from the kitchen/dining area to the back deck/patio. That would be heaven. There was another house that we wanted to view, but I guess it had an offer, and stopped all showing of the house unless the offer fell through. There are very few other houses on our list that we would like to see. In part we want to just wait until Ang's dad's house sells before we even look at another place, but we also want to have an idea of what is out there. I'm having a hard time concentrating on things these days. I am having a hard time keeping up with life. I am having a hard time sleeping at night, mostly tossing and turning. I guess there is just a lot going on that I am trying to keep sorted out in my mind. It's a crazy time. I do however have my little girl. She is just doing things to amaze me more each day. I don't think I have ever seen an 18 month old talk so much. She is a little dare devil. My most favorite thing she does is take my glasses off and then kiss me. lol. Too cute. Yesterday she was sitting on the dog's back and "reading a book". The poor little dogs... they are so tolerant.