Monday, December 27, 2010

This and That...

So, Christmas wasn't traditional this year. Strange. Mom was still in the hospital, but insisted that we still go to our uncle's house for Christmas dinner. After visiting her in the hospital we did end up at my Uncle's. It was nice, but just not the same without my mom there.

My mom has at least been diagnosed. She has Colitis. She has finally admitted that she has been experiencing symptoms for quite some time. I guess she might have had this for years, but never knew because she was a smoker. She quit in September of this year after smoking for 40 something years. I guess they say that the nicotine in the cigarettes suppresses the symptoms of Colitis. Unfortunately quitting causes symptoms to show.

Mom is feeling a lot better, and is responding well to the treatment. We expect that she will be out of the hospital some time this week. She hasn't held her granddaughter in over 3 weeks, and it is just killing her. As soon as she's out of the hospital we will go spend some quality time. I'm looking forward to it. My brother's family and us will have Christmas with mom once she is out of the hospital as well.

Maizey is sleeping better, sometimes, at night. We are having her sleep in our bed with us. This is something I thought that I would never want, but it works and we all get to sleep this way, so we will just have to transition her to her own crib/bed later when she sleeps better at night. She's changed so much over the last month. She's gained almost 2 lbs. Such a sweet little girl. I feel like we are the luckiest people on earth.

I do get paranoid about lots of things. She makes this loud "snoring" like sound when she breathes sometimes. We ended up taking her to the Emergency at the hospital one night last week after paging the midwife and having her listen to it over the phone. It sounded a lot like croup to her. After seeing the ER doc and then the pediatrician on call, we came home that night with a diagnosis of Tracheomalacia, the "snoring" sound is "stridor". We were told that it is not really anything to worry about and that it will likely go away with age. Usually disappearing by 18 months.

I am also paranoid about her eating habits. She is still eating only 2oz every 3 hours or sometimes more than 3 hours. We don't let her go more than 5 hours without eating. Sometimes she eats less than 2oz, and that is what starts me worrying. The midwife has told us since she has gained so much weight, it is fine to let her eat by her own appetite, especially because she is peeing and pooing regularly.

Something we haven't really mentioned too much on this blog, is the fact that we used a known donor to conceive Maizey. We do have a legal agreement with this donor, who is a very good friend of ours. Angela and I and the donor and his husband all agreed to have Steven (the Donor) play an active role in the baby's life, as a dad, on a social level, he has given up any legal rights he has to her, and understands that Angela and I are the legal parents who will make all decisions regarding Maizey. Angela and I allowed him in the delivery room for the birth. He took the pictures for us. :)





Yesterday, for the first time, I let Steven and Michael take Maizey for the day. They had some Christmas visiting to do, and well they wanted to show her off. We all survived. :) I missed her all day, but it was nice to have some time to sleep and clean the house. Angela and I also got to go on a date, and have some alone time. That was really nice too.

Friday, December 24, 2010

Thursday, December 16, 2010

:(

Sorry about the lack of posts. Been busy. One baby who doesn't sleep at night.. A mom who is very sick, (my mom) and can't figure out what is wrong. Lost 20 lbs in 2 weeks kinda sick... Just went to the hospital. A mother in law who just had some spinal fractures from her cancer filled, and came out in worse shape than going in... She had 4 units of blood given cause one of her incisions won't stop bleeding... Christmas shopping! So much to do.. No time! Too much stress and worry! Not to mention I got an email from my dad who is vacationing in Thailand and my step mom is in hospital there with suspected typhoid fever! WOW! I'll Try to update soon. Sorry about the sloppy post!


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Tuesday, December 7, 2010

boobs are a no go

So, after much heartache, Maizey is off the boob. it wasn't working. She would spend an hour at the breasts, and then gobble up 3oz of formula right after. It just seems she wasn't getting what she needed. even if we fed her 3oz of pumped milk, she would be looking for more as soon as she was done.

We are such first time moms. everything is questions. Is she eating enough, is she sleeping too much, do we hold her too much, are we spoiling her by holding her too much, why does she wake up and cry as soon as we put her down? will we ever sleep at night again? etc...

she sleeps almost all day and wont settle at night. she seems to get a lot of gas at night. we try to keep her up during the day, but she wont have it. wow.. so different than i expected. not worse...just different. it is especially hard when Ange goes to work for the day. I'm just not good at living on someone else's schedule.









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Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Breast Feeding

Some nights are less of a routine than others. I mean, really we've only had her for a week so i'm not expecting clock work yet. Breast feeding is well... Going. I thought I was indifferent about bottle vs breast, turns out... I want a breast milk baby. I've shed many a frustration tear about this as I struggle. My boobs are good boobs for this.. And a week in and I haven't given up yet, but it seems little Maizey doesn't want to work for her food. She either isn't/can't latch far enough on my nipple, or she is too lazy to suck hard enough. She's just not getting enough and simply wants to graze all day/night. We've been supplimenting with formula and now that I'm pumping, bottles of breast milk. It seems to be helping get a routine. Speaking of feeding, it's that time again...


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Monday, November 29, 2010

Better than the hospital!

Angela loves me :)
She brought me this beautiful breakfast tray this morning before she left for work. Way better than the hospital!
I love her so much!





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Sunday, November 28, 2010

Mellow Yellow

So we were sent back to the hospital by the midwife to have a jaundis test done. It seems Maizey had lost more than 10% of her birth weight and was appearing yellow.
We spent the night. Ang and I on our little cot and Maizey in her incubator under the photo therapy lights. Feeding every 3 hours 15 min per breast, then a quick diaper change and a top up of formula, it really was a good night... We seem to have a better routine going and Maizey seems to be more content. My milk is finally here, so she's getting more with the breast feeding. I'm just waiting to get that pesky first BM out of my way! Ugh... Constipation :(
A few poor quality iPhone pictures for you.


Me at babies r us about 11 hours before giving birth.



Light therapy



Baby butt cracks are sooo cute lol



Mama's first turn to feed her!



Maizey is sleeping now!


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Friday, November 26, 2010

Welcome to the world!

Maizey Anne Preciosa is here! (early and quickly)

I went to bed on Tuesday night after experiencing what I thought were either Braxton hicks contractions or just maybe some gas. I woke up to pee at 12:30am on Wednesday and thought it was strange that I was still having these little weird cramps... Am I stupid? Just maybe.. More likely denial. So, when I woke up at 2am to pee again, and I was still having them, I woke Angela ... She decided that she was going to time them. They were average 3 min apart lasting about a min each ... We decided to page the midwife at about 230. She told me to have a bath and if they intensified... Page her again...
OH BOY! Did they intensify? YES they sure did!
The midwife was on her way to our house, and so was my mom!
At 4:30 am, my water broke as the midwife arrived to the house. At that time, I was 5 cm dialated. Contractions closer together with little relief... 5 am .. 7 cm dialated. We left for the hospital. 20 min drive... 5:25 am pants off, onto the birth table and pushing while having blood work... 5:58am- Maizey is here!!!!! "she's not even ugly! She's actually beautiful!" I LOVE HER

She took the right breast for about an hour off and on, until I was whisked away to the o.r. ... Yep the O.R people!!! Little miss may be a tiny 6lbs 6oz, but she came trucking into this world traveling at speeds beyond vaginal threshold! I was put under a general and had my parts put back together. Stiches? Too many to count.. Trauma to the bathroom bits (yes, both front and backside bits), too graphic to describe, and every bit as painful as you can bear to imagine.


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Friday, November 19, 2010

Time Goes By...

Only 2 days left of work. I wish I had put in for earlier leave, but I will certainly enjoy the last full paycheck. Im really starting to get worried about financials, just because everything is so up in the air.
We had a staff meeting on Wednesday, and all my co-workers threw me a mini baby shower/party. It was very nice. My fireman friend made me the funnest cake.


everyone keeps asking me if i have any feeling as to when the baby will be coming. I really don't. She will be here when she's here is what I keep telling them. My body is showing signs that it is getting ready, but that doesn't mean it will be soon. At the midwife appointment this week, we talked about what happens if I go over due. Ugh.. that's discouraging. LOL. Only 10 days until the "due date" but up to 24 days until the baby is actually here! wow. that's like a whole month. lol.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

getting closer

19 Days to the due date! I had my midwife appointment today. Everything is still right on target. All my measurements have been dead on each week. My strep b test came back negative as well so that is good. Heartbeat is good, head is engaged. A week and a couple days left of work. The time is coming.
We had our shower on the weekend. If you know me on facebook, I have shared the album on my wall. I don't have a copy of the pictures on my computer yet, so I can't put any up on here. We got so many great things, and saw so many people I don't to see often enough. It was a great shower. I was surprisingly tired after it was over, even though it was only 2 hours long and I was weighted on hand and foot the whole time.
I'm getting excited for her birth, and to have her here with us. But I am also getting nervous that I am going to miss her being inside there. :)

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Counting down

Ok, only 4 weeks left. I'm getting excited!! Ange is getting excited!! Our shower is on Sunday and we are very much looking forward to it. It will be the first time that Angela gets to meet most of my cousins on my dad's side. We really don't get together to much so I am really happy that they have all rsvp'd yes to the shower!
Everyone keeps asking me if I am getting nervous about the delivery. I don't feel nervous at this point. I guess I look at it the same way I look at most things that commonly make people nervous. "the time will come, I'll do my best to get through it, my future is unwritten ... But I'll end up coming out the other side with a new experience, one more page in my story "... Really I don't get how nervousness would help the situation any. But maybe that tune will change! Who knows.
Just over 2 weeks of work left if I last that long. A lot of my joints are getting achy and my lady parts are really rather sore.
I have been doing what I can when at home to make sure things are in order for little one's first days at home.
I am anticipating the paperwork for EI and all of that. It frustrates me that I can't do it until I am finished work. I like to have anything related to money and income set up in advance. I went through a time when I was not great at managing and now I try hard to know well in advance how our financials will be organized.
I have still got to pack my bag for the hospital, but am procrastinating. I suppose I'll do it this weekend. I hope.


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